too pussy to kill myself

I've deleted Tumblr. Facebook is next once Dakota gets home.
Then I will literally only have this blog to vent on. And that's okay because not a fucking soul has it.
I can rant about James, Jade, My mom, My aunt, anybody that makes me upset. Nobody will see.
I can talk about how badly I'd like to slam my face into a wall. How badly I'd like to bring the flame to my thighs again.
I can whine and I can cry.
And nobody will fucking see.

Not even Dakota.

No fuck it this time. This is my diary. My fucked up little secret that I won't let anybody in on.
No sympathy friends on here. Nobody to tell me how pretty and normal I am.
Just me.
Drilling the fact that yes, I actually am a severely fucked up human being. Nobody around to twist that awful truth.

I am a fucking waste.
And I am wasting the fuck away.











And that's the truth, Dakota. That's the truth, mom. That's the truth, Leyna&Hannah.


















I will go nowhere in this life.