So I think this is what my future is going to look like pretty soon..
I'll either be:

1.) Alone, clinically depressed, poor, jobless, homeless, no education, probably mentally crazy and end up killing myself because I'll be so fucking sad.

2.) A drunk/drug addict/some kind of klepto or something that drags everyone around me down and live a stressful life because I'm too fucking selfish to just let all these good people around me go.

I should choose the 1st one because less people will get hurt that way, but like I said...I'm selfish.