/confusion

I don't know what to do because I don't know what's best.
I've got an idea, but my heart says no no no no no no.
Shut up heart. You don't know logic like I do.

I need to talk to Jade's dad.

Stop hurting heart. It's time for me to grow the fuck up.

Possibly The Greatest Thang I Evur Did See

So soon. Too soon.





I will make you go away, even if you don't want to.

thunk.
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THUNK.
THUNK.

I am a waste.
And I'm wasting away.

I Won't Be Able To Sleep For Days

I had a dream I was drowning in bright green water. It shimmered, it was beautiful.
And I was dying and I was happy.
And then I realized that the green water was just your eyes. Your bright shimmering eyes.
I was just a freckle in your eye.
There was no other significance of my existence.
I only helped you shimmer.
I helped make you look beautiful.
I drowned though.

Are you still beautiful?
Do you need all of the freckles in your eyes for them to shimmer properly?
Do you need me to help you shimmer?
Are you still beautiful?

You're Going To Be The Death Of Me

I can't stand it.

I feel like I share everything with you.

Everything I know about. Music. Fashion taste. Movies. Friends. Ideology.

I feel like I share my world with you. I feel like you don’t share shit with me. I feel like you take what I share with you and butcher it. I feel like I hate the things I have shared with you now.

/Despondent

I'm isolating myself again.
I'm trying my hardest not to, but I just want to be alone.

Being bailed on gives me the worst feeling in the entire world. I get my hopes up way too quickly and way too easily. Time to stop expecting so much.